I sat in the swamp with a little pink piggy
who loved roller-skating and playing pretend,
the boy that she loved was a real snack master,
the world was a beach ball and we were all friends.
Then he died alone,
and the last time I saw her
it looked like the reaper had rapped on her door.
She said, “do you remember singing ice ice baby with me,
laying down on the reef bathroom floor?”
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget.
Jimmy & Johnny just stare at each other
while their mother hangs in the holiday inn.
Your funeral on your son’s seventh birthday
is the worst thing you could ever give him;
I bet he’d like flowers, balloons, and a card
"unconditionally yours, all my love, from your mom"
much more than wearing that little black suit
and saying goodbye forever to you.
I haven’t forgotten the times that I teased you
and everyone else pointed at you and laughed.
Permanent damage was not my intention,
but I could not foresee the aftermath
of my actions.
I was so small,
wanted to grow in the eyes of my enemies.
For awhile I felt tall,
but they knocked me back down
now I’m here on my knees,
looking at my face in a bed of pine needles
and wondering if anyone stills knows my name
I turned full circle and then another half circle
and tried to go back the same way that I came.
Look alive Dawson! your heels are dragging
I never knew anyone could move so slow!
You may be a hotshot now, but you are still a cow
A big fat F, why don’t you just go home!
I guess that that means I did not make the team
I’ll just lay on the ground and look up at the trees
The old bedford oak the tall evergreens,
this is not a joke, this is not a dream.
Not sleeping just resting
that I wish were peaches:
I saw your dad later that day
Maybe he shot himself, could’ve been someone else
Asked me to tell you what he had to say:
"You don’t have to end up
with people who self destruct,
go find a lover who will never leave.
Fear of abandonment, self hate, and discontent
will go away when you let yourself grieve
and forget about me."
How could I ever forget? I could never forget,
I will never forget.
i’m going to die, lol.
i happen between the birthing ward and the cemetery, lol.
christians don’t scream in the streets believing what they don’t believe, lol.
it’s all a myth, lol.
makes us believe that life is important, lol.
everything we do is being watched by god, lol. leave me alone.
so i’m an atheist now, lol.
now i’m a machine, lol.
so i’ll commit suicide, lol.
who started it? are we going to make it? where are we going to put it? who is going to clean it up? is it serious?
why go on?
when i meet you:
hello big bang
i am big bang
wiggly physical world
all not straight lines
and you cannot control me
i will not hold you